Rayyan Hadiff at 8 months

sangat suka bila maklang wat bubble



"i'm busy,mama"




suka dok dalam raga..ignore calitan kunyit di dahi..haha



sangat lasak time tido....dan time bukan tido sekali..hehe

dalam bakul lagik..

dan lagik

shopping my food..iaitu fruits

i luv Maher Zain

and sarung BB's papa too..hehe

::Desperate for A Vacation::

I need a theraphy desperately..

Tak taula apa yang stress sangat menuju ke penghujung tahun ni..

I dun want to complain..i hate complaining (i dun deserve to complain anyway.. = ) )

But frankly, my life is so hectic and i'm too tired..

I really need a getaway..just for few days..

As usual, my cauncelor aka my husband came out with brilliant idea..

He suggested us to go for..

   .......A VACATION!! Weehooo!!........

Thank u,sayang..i really need one

Makin bersemangat pulak nak setelkan kerja yang tak berpenghujung nih.. hehe..

Dalam pikiran nih dah terbayang-bayang tempat nak pegi..

Antara places of getaway yang dibayang-bayangkan itu... adalah

Tempat hiburan  

I'm not so into theme park..it doesn't mean i hate this place..it just not me..or maybe orang-orang umur I dah tak seswai naik menda-menda putar alam nih (hehe..saya sangat gayat orangnya sebenarnya)..lagipon kalau bawak ncik Hadiff sape yang nak tolong pegangkan..takkan nak tinggal kat tempat simpan barang kot..IT'S TOTALLY A NO!


ataupon tempat-tempat sejuk begini??





This place is one of my favourite.. I always like to go to Cameron Highland..
Rasanya tiap-tiap tahun mesti aku sampai sana kot..
Nampak gaya pendapat suami perlu diambilkira bab nih..sebab mesti dia tersangatla boring nak gi sana
Hm..okay,let's consider other place first..
Sorry my beloved Cameron Highland..I must put u in my waiting list first


Tempat shopping..hmm..




Tempat shopping..okaayy..Dats kinda cool and good option
Tapi nak shopping apa?Takat KLCC, Midvalley nampak gaya tak keluar KL la
Pastu sejak menjak jadi mak nih..pusing macam ye ye je..
alih-alih mama shopping barang Hadiff jugak..adehlaa
Maybe balik KB..Aduiiii..tapi sekarang musim hujan..some more my parents are not in KB at the moment so watpe nak balik..


Tempat bersejarah kah???



Hm..melancong sambil menambah ilmu ok jugak tuh..
Melaka pon dah diiktiraf Negeri Maju sekarang..
Dekat pon dekat..tapi..macam tak nakla utk sekarang ni..
Lagipon ncik Hadiff bukan tau ape pon lagi
Next time la kan...kita buat lawatan sambil belajar ye,sayang..

 

ataupon pantai (all time favourite place)



OMG!!This is the place..I love beach..and always be..
Setakat ni Pulau Perhentian telah dinobatkan sebagai aktiviti tahunan aku...hehe
Tapi nak bawak encik Hadiff ni leceh sikit..
Sian kat dia..nanti Hadiff dah pandai jalan kita pegi ye,Sayang...


After segala aspek telah diambilkira termasuk keselesaan encik Hadiff..(yelah,nak bawak Yang Berhormat tu bukan sebarang tempat boleh bawak), segi kewangan, segi masa dan bla bla maka tempat yang aku teringin sangat nak pergi itu adalah..

jeeeeeenggg....

jeeeenggggggggggggggggggg..........

jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnggggggg..........

LANGKAWI!!!

It offers everything..

beach (that i luv most and some more boleh bawak Hadiff)

shopping (chocolates,chocolates and chocolates lagiii..)

sight seeing

and it's in one of my husband's place to visit in Malaysia list..

Jangan lengahkan masa..Ayuh kita booking

psstttt : attention to ncik hubby,please take note yer..muahs!! ;p

To all parents out there..

Pencil: I'm sorry....

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)


I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

This is for all parents out there.....

Hang in there!


psstt..cerita ini dipinjam dari sumber luar..thank you!i'm inspired :)

::Family Dinner::

At last..everyone's here except for Amey n family..how i wish all of u r here..



Mr Hubby n Big Bro (I wish my second brother,Azmil was here)




Faliq is alone sbb ncik Hadiff kena tinggal




semua tengah lapar




yang ini paling lapar (we miss u, kak ika)



Tok Wan n Faliq

The eldest and the youngest in the family



Terbaeeekkk!!



Udang sweet sour yang dah tinggal beberapa ekor

Sayur selalunya paling lambat abes ;p

siput sedut ini sangat sedap okayyy

ikan kerapu yang belom pape dah kene rodok ngan Aiman

Yam Cake is always our favourite actually it's mak's choice

Udang lagik..masak sambal

me n sista

sluurrpp



I luv u all!!




and both of u



Thank you,papa sebab belanja..Actually, It was my idea and it supposed to be my treat.. Siap canang kat sume I nak belanja sebab dapat bonus..
But as usual Papa mesti akan bayar sebab die slalu cakap i ni golongan kurang mampu (guulllppppp...papa,u r so sincere n i luv u so much)



::Lesson learned::

This week,i totally learned sumthing..

It's about trust,betrayal,forgive n forget..

Sumthing happened..which i really dun expect at all..

It never across my mind i will face this kinda situation..

I wont tell the whole situation but I just wanna express my feeling n thoughts

I've been lied from someone i've trusted much..fullstop.

Oh,please..of course it's not my Hubby..You won't do dat to me,woukld u? (^_^)

Shocked,Upset,Frustrated,Angry,Confused..dats wut i feel..

Rasenye muka i time tuh ada la ala-ala macam nih..(tapi kiut sikit la kot..err..mayb slim sket?ngeh ngeh ngeh)



terduduk kauu bile tau kene tipu..


now i know..how does it feel when being cheated.
Bila dapat tau tu,I was so emotional and rasanya berjalan pon dah tak jejak kaki kat tanah..
I admit i was so panas baran..cepat marah,cepat ngamuk,cepat nangis jugak..hehe..
Kalau ikotkan hati memang ku sekeh2 jer si ia nih..nengok die pon besar,kecik,besar kecik jer..
i tried to calm myself.. i know dat ikotkan hati binasa..
Dalam perasaan yang tak dapat nak kategorikan apa itu,i amik wudhu'
amik kain telekung n solat hajat..
cuba jauhkan pengaruh syaitan dalam keadaan yang marah tu..
know what..hati i sangat tenang..
i looked at Hadiff n hati ku laaaagi tenang.. (wpun cuak time tu dia tengah bukak pintu toilet..oh,Hadiff)
Sesungguhnya aku berserah padamu, ya Allah..

And dengan penuh tekad, I've decided to forgive si dia..
Yes,forgive sebab memberi kemaafan bukan hakku..
forget is a no..bukan berdendam..cuma simpan untuk diri sebagai peringatan..
Waktu tu ramai yang pertikaikan my decision..
I ingatkan diri i balik..Sedangkan Rasulullah SAW memberi kemaafan walaupun dikhianati
inikan aku yang hina dina ni..sob..sob..

Okayy,moral of the story :

1) Sila beringat tak semua orang mempunyai keikhlasan sama ngan kita..(refer pada diri senirik jgk,hehe)
2) Allah doesn’t promise us understanding. He promises us peace beyond understanding. Trust more, question less.(ntah kenapa di sebabkan quotes ini menyebabkan saya berpegang pada decision saya utk menjadikan kisah ini hanyalah salah satu jatuh bangun dalam hidup saya)
3) Semoga diri ini dapat mengikuti sifat Rasulullah SAW yang pemaaf dan yang lain-lain jugak)



Happy balik daaah!!



Wut to do if..

Yeah,entry ini tepat sekali dengan pengalaman sy sejak dua menjak nih..
Wut to do if.."DEMAM"


Ni adalah petua/tips hasil sy interview otai2 teman sekerja, usaha gigih google di kala 2,3 pagi n bla..bla..
Ok,kalau anda mengesyaki anda demam,selsema dan batuk berkahak, sila :


1) Check temperature anda dengan thermometer yg paling diyakini. (amik2,3 kali baru konfiden)
2) Lumur asam jawa pada dahi dan ubun-ubun (bagi panas kuar sket-quoted by Kak Milah)
3) Minum air kelapa (ko jangan letak ais pulak,tu cari penyakit-quote Kak Milah jugak)
4) Amik daun sirih,ramas-ramas,sampai kuar air then lumur kat dada,konon hilang batuk n kahak
5) Mandi awal..time Subuh gitu.Kalo dah pukul 11 tu tak payahla nak kira awal,k
6) Minum air suam or 100 plus banyak2..elakkan dehydrate boleh redakan batuk jugak
7) No 'ICE'!!! (peringatan tuk diri senirik jugak)

Hm..setakat ni tu jelah..yang lain tu asyik berulang sama jer..
So, any petua to share, ANYONE?? 

Feeling Sick

Oh,dear..i feel so sick..
Today, I've given mc..Doc suh rest..
Now I realize,being a mother there will never a day you can call it off or mc or annual leave..etc..
U will be working and do your job as a mother 24/7 for the rest of ur life..
I'm not complaining..NEVER..i love being a mother..
Just poor my baby Hadiff..dia jangkit demam ngan i..
As a human,of course there's a small tiny whiny sighing but I always remember there are millions of women who willing to change their place with me..just to have their own child..Syukur Ya Allah..
I woke up at 3am and realize Hadiff's hand and feet as cold as ice..
And the thermometer showed 38.3..
Disebabkan oleh pengalaman yg lalu,maka aku tak panik..
Suddenly,he woke up and ajak main..okeh,lega..aktif mcm biase cuma tak lasak sgt
Kejut Kak Maria sbb dia tukang bagi ubat..I x boleh nak bagi dia ubat sebab..sebab..sebab..
i takot ubat..hehe..so,kalo i takot nk makan ubat cemane nk pakse anak makan ubat,kan?
Tapi elok je die telan terus die muntahkan ubat tu n tertido..
Huhh,kagum aku menyaksikan kejadian muntah dan terlelap tu..ingatkan die pengsan pon ye gak..
Okay,peeps..
I've to excuse myself..ncik Hadiff sudah meraung melihatkan aku tiada di sisi..
I'm coming, my baby!

My First Hari Raya Korban with Rayyan Hadiff

16th November 2010..
I had to take emergancy leave coz Hadiff's temperature was not so good.
Stayed at home all day..couldn't sleep last nite since I had to monitor his temperature..
I went to PV8..asal-asal nak masak utk Raya esok but not even a chance..
Hadiff sangat kuat menempek sampaikan Pak Tam and Mak Lang nak dukung pon tak bleh lama~sigh~
Poor baby, he refused to sleep,and he wanted to play all the time..
Kadang-kadang terlintas jugak nak marah-marah dia tapi aku sedar ni sume dugaan sebagai ibu..
Syukurla die aktif dari terus lemah je,kan?
At the end Tok Wan die balik and dapat tidokan hadiff..
Syukur sangat-sangat..hehe. Tok Wan memang master bab tidokan budak2 nih..
Malam tu Hubby came back from Singapore and he took care of Hadiff so dat I could have my sleep at least 2 hours.
Tq,Sayang.*.Pengsan*

17 November 2010.
Eid Aidiladha.
Alhamdulillah his temperature had went down.Pagi tu Kmaria goreng bihun for morning breakfast.
Pas suamiku balik Solat Raya terus kitorang ke rumah Moksu untuk celebrate ngan family.
It was very happening..but..Hadiff being so cranky..
He refused to be with everyone except us..Adoyaaii..
Mama nak enjoy makan pon susah tau..Dahla masaklodeh Moksu mmg super duper sedap plak aritu..
After dat we went to Mak Ngah's house and makan-makan lagi..
Finally we dropped by at PV8..
There,Kak Tim and Faliq dah ada..
Abang and mak pi beli lampu la ape la..ada sajaa projek mak aku nihh..
Nampak muka maria i felt so relieved..Finally I can have a rest..
Dat nite we were visited by Kak Tim's sister Kak Min and hubby and Aunty Zie
There goes my first Hari Raya Aidiladha with Hadiff..(^_^)

Pics Day 1 at Singapore

Ncik Hadiff di surau..gara-gara nak melasak

Ncik Faliq : I'm the boss

Hadiff : Nak jadik boss jugak

Tenkiu to cik nurse yang tolong entertain ncik Hadiff dalam flight

baru nak dinner..lapar +penat

menu malam itu : nasik beriani kambing + nasik beriani ayam + murtabak ayam

dah kenyang posing la pulak kat Arab Street

Singapore oh Singapore..

Akhirnya pada 4hb November aritu, impian aku untuk ke Singapore with Hadiff dapat direalisasikan..

Thanks to Abang n Kak Tim..

Tapi dugaan untuk sampai ke Singapore tu boley tahan jugakla banyak..

Ianya bermula dengan hari itu aku tetap gi opis sebab kebetolan  ada important meeting tp of course la aku x masuk la kan..

Dengan happy nye aku mintak excuse nak balik awal al maklumla x pack ape lagi..

Tup-tup da sampai umah baru pasan i had left my purse kat office..

Dengan gelabahnya aku drive balik n i can manage to reach office within 20 minutes (ampuun,pak polis!)

Sampai umah i start packing,mandi,bla bla..n supposed my cab akan sampai by 3.30pm

Tapi memandangkan aku sangat excited siap turun 10 minutes earlier..

Tetibe aku rase sumthing tak kene and when I called the driver,die still kat Putrajaya..

OMG!!

I called public cab n within 10 minutes i dah dapat replacement..

Tulah yang aku nak hangen sngat nih..kata janji Melayu karang..marah pulakk..

Dah janji nak hantar aku xpayahla ko amik passenger lain...xpun call la dulu ke apeke..

okeh..cukup..ingat pasal tu ble wat aku ilang mood je la..

Teksi yang kitorang naik ni pulak bole tahan laju sangat pulak

Sampai nak terkeluar isi perut aku sebab asyik terhayun sana sini..

naseb aku jamah roti canai je tadi..kalo nasik beriani agak2 dah selamat dah..

setelah perjalanan yang ala2 BAck to the future tuh akhirnya kitorang selamat sampai di airport..

pas check in,kitorang just lepak surau kat LCCT memandangkan ncik Hadiff kita meronta-ronta nak merangkak kat airport tuh..

Abang pon satu hal..dahla lambat..bley wat aku stress je la..

Penerbangan sejam utk sampai ke Singapore pon agak mencabar buat aku memandangkan ncik Hadiff buat aksi Tarzan dengan menjerit sekuat2 hati..

Dah tak tau nak letak muke mane dah rasenye..

Naseb la ade nurse yg baik ati tolong layankan ncik Hadiff kite nih..

Sampai sane aku rase mcm lega sangat bila nampak suami ku itu..

Aku tau yang ade seseotrang bole tolong handlekan ncik Hadiff nih.

Penangan mendukung budak seberat sekampit beras siam itu maka terjadilah adegan menangis di pukul 3 pagi sebab sakit urat..

Thanx to ncik hubby sebab tolong urutkan saya di pagi hari yer..:)

::A gift to my beloved ones::

After some time i think i need to start my journal again..
U see, I'm a weekend wife and a daily mother to my active pecious, Rayyan Hadiff..
which means..i have no time at all..
but still i will allocate some of my time to put effort on writing about my life,my thoughts..
I hope this will be a gift to my children..so that they will feel close to me  and know me better
Even i'm not in this world anymore..
So,happy reading..and this blog is dedicated to u, my beloved hubby and son,Rayyan Hadiff