::Dari Mama untuk Rayyan Hadiff::

Anakanda mama,
Sepatutnya mama postkan entry ini khusus pada hari kamu dilahirkan..
Tapi mungkin masa yang tidak mengizinkan..
Mungkin juga banyak hal yang perlu diselesaikan
tapi ingat,sayang..
Mama tidak pernah lupakan waktu dan saat kamu dilahirkan..
Mana mungkin mama melupakan waktu mama mempertaruhkan nyawa untuk melahirkan kamu,nak
Mana mungkin mama melupakan detik mama bergelar ibu
Gelaran dan anugerah dari Allah yang mungkin tak semua orang kecapi
Syukur padaMu, Ya Allah..

Tanggal 26hb Mac 2010, mama dimasukkan ke dalam  hospital Pusrawi kerana bukaan menunjukkan 3cm
Masha Allah,langsung mama tak perasan..
Sampailah bukaan 5cm pun mama tidak merasainya, Subhanallah..
Lantas mama diberikan epidural kerana itu pilihan mama..
Bukaan menunjukkan 10 cm namun setelah diteran kamu masih enggan keluar,nak
Rupa-rupanya posisi kamu dalam keadaan mendongak dan kamu tersangkut di celah paha mama..
Doktor Marsita meminta izin untuk melakukan pembedahan memandangkan nadi kamu mula menurun
Mak Tok dan Papa yang menemani kita mulai cemas
Tapi mama tetap tenang kerana mama tahu Allah bersama kita dan semua yang berlaku kehendakNya
Mama diusung ke dalam dewan pembedahan dan ketika itu mama keletihan
Mama penat,sayang..dan mama dahaga yang amat..
Sewaktu mereka membedah perut mama, hanya Allah sahaja dalam pemikiran mama..
Dengan izin Allah, kamu keluar melihat dunia tepat pukul 4.43 am tanggal 27 Mac 2010
Seluruh pasukan di dewan bedah berzikir memuji Allah " Subhanallah" beberapa kali dengan kuat sehingga lidah mama kelu..
Mereka tunjukkan kamu kepada mama..dan mama menangis seiring dengan tangisan kamu yang kuat..
Mama sekarang bergelar seorang ibu dan kamu adalah amanah Allah untuk mama..
Setelah itu mama pengsan dan denyutan nadi mama turun..
Mama tidak sedarkan diri sehingga mama diusung keluar dari dewan pembedahan
Apabila mama bangun mama terasa dahaga yang amat..sehingga mama merayu untuk diberikan air
setitis cukuplah,kata mama..
Mama teringatkan kamu..pasti kamu lapar,kan nak..
Akhirnya dengan kudrat yang ada, mama berjaya menyusui kamu dengan susu mama..

Begitulah serba ringkas mengenai pertemuan kita, Rayyan Hadiff bin Shamsul Afiq Sani
Bukan mama mahu mencanangkan pengorbanan mama..
Untuk tatapan ikhlas buat kamu dan mama juga..
Melalui hari-hari bersamamu membuatkan mama sentiasa menghargai apa yang ada
Mama ingin menjadi seorang yang lebih baik..
Menjadi seorang pemegang amanah bukan kerja mudah,
Mama dan papa berusaha untuk memberikan yang terbaik buat kamu,
Mama mungkin tidak mampu memberikan harta yang melimpah ruah,
tapi mama tidak mungkin akan memberikan kesusahan kepada kamu,
bukan juga bererti memanjakan kamu..dunia ini tidak semudah yang kita sangka,sayang..
Apa yang mampu mama cuba ialah memberikan didikan agama dan moral secukupnya
buat bekalan kamu dalam mengharungi dunia penuh dengan dugaan
Untuk permulaan, biarlah mama curahi kamu dengan kasih sayang dan mengenyangkan perut kamu dengan susu mama,
Tidak mama izinkan walau setitis susu lain mengalir dalam perut kamu itu,
Itulah bukti cinta mama kepada kamu,Rayyan Hadiff
Demi cinta itu, mama sanggup berjaga malam setiap 3 jam untuk mengepam susu buat mu
Allah tidak mengurniakan susu mama semewah orang lain,nak
tapi mama tekad demi kamu..ikrar mama..
sehingga setahun tiada susu yang mengenyangkan kamu
melainkan susu mama..
Dan tanggal 27.3.2011 mama mengotakan janji mama..
Mama berjaya,Rayyan Hadiff
Dalam tak sedar mama menangis terharu dengan kejayaan mama..
Dugaan bukan sedikit,sayang..Susu tak mewah,seluruh stok susumu dibuang di waktu pengeluaran susu umpama kais pagi makan pagi..
tapi dengan izin Allah, setahun cukup kamu hanya minum susu mama disulami dengan air suam
Seingat mama inilah kepuasan mama yang terhebat..
tapi perjuangan mama tidak akan sesekali terhenti setakat ini
mama akan berikhtiar sehingga kamu cukup 2 tahun setengah..Insha Allah
Istilah 'nek ai' akan sentiasa berbunga di hati mama..

Itulah panggilan mu terhadap susu mama..

Sayang mama, Rayyan Hadiff..
Di saat ini kamu tidak lagi mengenal cinta lain selain dari cinta kami,nak..
Tidaklah kamu merasai peritnya dunia ini yang penuh dengan kekejaman
Sesungguhnya jika terdaya tidak akan mama izinkan kamu disakiti,
Tidak akan biarkan kamu dikhianati,
Tapi itulah lumrah dunia, nyawaku
Itulah kehidupan namanya,
Akan ada jatuh bangun disitu,
Akan ada menangis dan kegembiraan dirasai..
Tapi kamu jangan bimbang, sayang
Mama dan Papa akan disamping kamu,nak..
Kami akan sambut kamu di kala kejatuhan,
menyokong kamu di kala tersadung,
memeluk kamu di kala kamu perlukan,

Cuma ingat pinta mama,
Berterima kasihlah kamu pada papa..
Sesungguhnya kamu sangat beruntung memiliki bapa sebaik beliau,
Mama bersyukur dialah bapa kepada kamu Rayyan Hadiff,
Orang yang mengazankan kamu sewaktu kamu menjenguk dunia,
Tiada yang lain..melainkan dia..
Ingat pesan mama,
Bukan wang yang mama minta mahupun balasan duniawi dari kamu,
Cukuplah kamu ingat pengorbanan mama dan papa,
Doakan kami, bacailah Al-Quran dan sedekahilah fadhilatnya pada kami,
Boleh kan,sayang mama?

Di harap coretan mama tidak membosankan kamu..
Merangka ayat bukan kelebihan mama,
Apa yang kamu perlu tahu, mama dan papa ikhlas menjalankan amanah kami,
Sayang mama dan papa pada kamu tidak berpenghujung..

Setahun sudah berlalu, dan mama hadiahkan doa supaya kamu diberkati Allah dunia dan akhirat,
Tidak mengapa kamu tidak kacak di mata orang,
ketahuilah kamu lah penawar mata dan penyejuk hati kami,
Dakapan dan ciuman mu menghilangkan kedukaan kami,
Panggilan mama dan papa menambahkan semangat kami,
Semoga sayang mu pada kami berkekalan dan tiada setandingan,
Walau 20 tahun,30 tahun sehingga kami menutup mata..kasih mu langsung tidak berkurangan,
Dengar sayang,
Mama menghalalkan setiap susu yang menitis ke dalam mulut mu,
Itulah hadiah mama buatmu,sayang..

Close your eyes, 
Have no fear, 
The monsters gone, 
He's on the run and your daddy and mommy are here, 

Beautiful Boy, 
Before you go to sleep, 
Say a little prayer, 
Every day in every way, 
It's getting better and better, 

Beautiful Boy, 
Out on the ocean sailing away, 
I can hardly wait, 
To see you to come of age, 
But I guess we'll both, 
Just have to be patient, 
Yes it's a long way to go, 
But in the meantime, 

Before you cross the street, 
Take my hand, 
Life is just what happens to you, 
While your busy making other plans, 

Darling Rayyan Hadiff

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Toddler*tears*

 Ikhlas dari Mama
b/p papa (boleh gitu?hehe)

.:HaDiFF's BirThDay BaSh:.

Date : 26 March 2011
Location : Our home sweet home
Time : From noon until midnite (yess,i'm not kidding u)
Approximate guests : 100 even more

Birthday boy baru pas mandi




Dessert Table



Our Chef of the Day *thank u,Mak Tok*

Happy Birthday,Rayyan Hadiff

Sebelom Party start perut saya kena isi dulu

Some of sweets on the dessert table *tapi my mama tak bagi saya makan*

Yeyy..up-themed *I luv balloons*

Kak Ainul ,orang first yang datang..thank u for all ur support,sis :)

Perghhh..slurrppp

Sangat sedap

Half of the food*thank u pada semua yang sponsor makanan*

jelly *homemade by me*

butter bread pudding *homemade by me*

Sate *order made from Kajang* delicious okayy..

Rendang ayam served with pulut kuning *order made from Pak Sahak (driver opis)
sempena one year fully breasfeed my baby

Nasi Dagang served with Gulai Ayam and Gulai Ikan Tongkol,goes with acar and air lada
*order made from Aunty Kak Ainul*

They are Korean freaks,kind hearted and cheerful as well =)
Thank you for coming,sis!

Lovely Cupcakes and yummeh too!

Old frens! but everlasting friendship..Thank u for coming

Love u oll..muah..muahs!

Hadiff is making friend with Naqib..U are so cute Naqib Qalish

Rayyan Hadiif's Button Cake..why button?Because he adore button so much.senang je nak bodek dia..pakai baju button mesti dia mintak dukung ngan orang tuh..

Yeay..acara nyanyi-nyanyi..Hadiff just love being centre of attention..ikot perangai sapa laa..

Auuumm..yeayy..Hadiff first bite of cake..adeh,tak rotate gambar la pulak

Penuh rumah so sila duduk luar yer..rumah saya kecik saje =)



The crowd and the food



Mak chaq adore ur sweet smiley face

Dessert table yang dah nak abes..ops lupa nak mention chocolate cake made by PakSu kat depan tu is marvellous *drooling*

Hadiff dah tukar uniform

Some of the gifts..thank u so much

Faliq pon potong cake jugak walaupon sebulan awal..it doesnt matter..
This trio has their special place in my heart

Tengok jam kat atas pintu tu..It shows 12 midnite and yet Faliq still not sleeping
*Hadiff and mama dah pengsan dalam bilik*

Hanya sebahagian gambar je dapat di upload..*kes malas punya pasal*hehe

I would like to thank to all especially ;

Mak - susah payah masak bihun and mi yang sedap and puding sagu gula merah (walaupon dia demam), sponsor macam-macam..hehe

Papa- sebab sponsor majlis ni jugak *u nearly made me passed out when i found out my camera was missing (padahal papa amik bawak gi Chiang Mai without telling me (-.-) )*

Mak K - siap amik cuti nak masakkan laksa johor yang super duper sedap..abes licin yer,tuan-tuan dan puan-puan

Papa K - for all ur moral support

Adik-adikku - banyak tolong keluarkan keringat dan abeskan makanan yang banyak

Andak and Mak Ndak- all the way from Ipoh and sponsor roti jala dan kari ayam*luv the curry so much*

Mak and Pak Ngah - tolong contributekan home made lopes and bengkang gandum

Ayong,Pak Long and Tok Mak -all the way from Johor nak sambut Birthday Hadiff

Poksu and Mok su - chocolate cake itu sangat sedaaaaap!!and the curry puff is soo tasty!

Friends -all ur du'a and sanggup datang jauh2..I really appreciate it

and to all yang mendoakan kami and yang tak dapat hadir, hanya Allah yang mampu membalas segala kebaikan anda!

Hugs to u all

To my brother, Azmil, sister Kak Ika and nephew, Affan : (if U read this)

I really wish all of u were here..This kenduri also to celebrate Kak Ika. May you success in whatever ur doing and achieve whatever u want =)

Syukran. Jaziilan..

 

::My baby is one::

Today..Hadiff is turning one!


Will update later..=)

::Thoughtful Thursday; Love Quotes::

“I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots,

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick;

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it,

I hate the way you're always right.

 I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you're not around,

and the fact that you didn't call.

 But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.

Not even close,

 not even a little bit,

 not even at all.” 

(Beautifully said in 10 things I Hate About U)

motif betollah gambar nih..

notakaki : and i love the way u love me

I L.O.V.E U, dear sayang *malu-malu*

::Planning Something Big::

Big la sangat kan..hehe
Actually I've been planning for it  few months ahead
tapi melampau la pulak awalnye kan..nampak sangat terlebey excited..huhu
Hm..it's my baby's birthday bash!
Yeaayy!
Huu..ada orang bagitau saya,once baby dah genap setahun she's not a baby anymore.
she will be called as 'toddler' huk huk
how time flies~cliche,i know
but it's true..memang tak sangka my baby dah setahun..
tambah pulak umur sepuluh bulan Rayyan Hadiff dah pandai berjalan pulak
lagi la rasa cepat betul dia membesar
mengeluhkah aku?tidak..tapi i can't deny i missed those moments..
okay..let's save the-emotional-touching-feeling-moment-story later,k?
I nak buat a big party tapi ongkosnya enggak mengizinkan
tengok member-member buat party mak aii mengalahkan kenduri nikah i you..kelasss!


Aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan dalam masa yang sama menelan air liur..
Takpelah ,Hadiff..I will always cherish the moment since the day u were born
everyday is a celebration for me..


Hadiah termahal yang mama mampu bagi ialah susu mama yang mengenyangkan perut kamu itu..teringat ebm yang selamat bersemadi (-.-)
Alrite..alrite..nak buat party u must need a plan..
So,dengan ini saya mengisytiharkan sayalah planner tak bergaji malah mengeluarkan gaji untuk party ini (hubby,please take note)

::Guidance for Rayyan Hadiff's Birthday Bash:: (source : http://www.babycenter.com.my/)

Understanding your one-year-old

Your one-year-old may be fearful of strangers, and strange or new places. Despite liking other babies, she won't understand how to play with them yet. She will enjoy individual attention and likes to make you laugh. All of which adds up to an intimate, low-budget family party!

Yep..dats wut i do..low-budget..haha!

Who to invite

At the closely-attached-to-Mum stage, the best way you can make this a special day for your one-year-old is by offering her loads of undiluted attention. Her social network will be small and intimate, and that's how she likes it. She won't thank you for a house full of strangers, so stick to close friends and relatives.

Oh my oh my..cannot la,sweetheart..Our relatives pon dah cukup ramai,both sides..takpe,sayang..it's only a day.everybody loves U,Hadiff..
This is a party or gathering that everybody will not want to miss..

Getting the timing right

By one, your baby may be in a daytime nap routine. The worst time for the excitement of a party is when your baby is tired, so afternoon tea, after nap time, works well. If you are inviting other baby guests, check out their nap times with their parents. Once one starts wailing, they all will! Keep the party brief - an hour or so is quite long enough at this age.

Games and activities

Loud bangs from party poppers and bursting balloons may frighten your baby, and discarded poppers and balloons are a serious choking hazard at this age, so leave them till next year.

Choosing a venue

Home is the place where your baby will feel most secure. She'll appreciate a few colourful decorations or, if you want something more adventurous, you could buy a baby ball pool.

What food to serve

Keep food simple - most of it will probably end up on the floor in any case!

Finger foods will be excellent for both babies and adults, as eating them won't interrupt play or interaction. Parents may well have brought a bottle or feeder cup with them containing the drink of their choice for their baby, but have water, milk and diluted fruit juices at the ready. If you're providing food for grown ups keep it simple. Avoid peanuts and other foods which may present a choking hazard to little ones.

Some babies will have quite a few teeth and be able to bite into food; others may still be toothless, so cater for both extremes: organic bread sticks, tiny sandwiches with cheese spread, cut into shapes, cubes of mild cheese, and mini fromage frais cartons. Chocolate fingers are scrummy, but messy - plain biscuits may suffice. Jelly tends to be more of a play material at this age and is very messy. Your mini guests will probably eat very little food, so aim for a variety of taste, texture and colour rather than quantity.

Aim for a wonderful cake

a homemade one is special, but cake or dessert specialists now have a great variety available, or try a bakery. You will need to order this in advance. Don't let your baby near the candle as she will want to grab, not blow, it.

Choosing a theme

 Party themes aren't important to a one-year-old. You might want to aim for a colour-coordinated look, but it's more for the benefit of the keepsake photos than your baby at this stage.

The party bags

Party bags are really superfluous at this age, and the usual goodies like sweets and balloons are downright dangerous. If you really want to give a going away present to your little guests, opt for a small, safe soft toy each or a board book to chew on.

Choosing presents

By now, your baby will appreciate something which makes a noise or lights up, or both, so activity centres are a good choice. It's never too early to read, and textured board books are great fun for your tactile baby. A trolley, or push-along to aid walking skills will be popular, and new bath toys are always welcome. You may want to consider a big, lasting present, such as a baby swing for outdoors or a rocking horse. If you already have loads of toys, she won't object if some people buy her clothes!

Top tips for a successful party

• Have somewhere clean, handy and well-equipped for nappy changing.
• Breastfeeding mums may appreciate somewhere quiet and private to feed.
• It's crawling, walking and climbing time - stair gates and fireguards are essential.
• Stow away precious ornaments and breakables. • Keep a very watchful eye on the party area for hazards, such as forks or small swallowable objects, and clear them quickly away.
• Babies will play alongside each other, not together, so keep a variety of toys available within a large, safe floor space.
• Relax - let your baby and her guests set the pace.
• Make sure you have a willing volunteer to take plenty of photos or unobtrusively wield a camcorder - you'll be too busy!


nota kaki : can't wait!!

Rest in peace oh,my ebm

Atas kealpaan diri..

Atas kebodohan sendiri..

EBM ku menjadi mangsa..

Maybe jugak ini adalah cabaran dari Allah atas perjuangan aku dalam menyusukan Rayyan Hadiff.

It takes only few hours to vanish all my 10 months effort

but it never fade my spirit in continuing my breastfeeding journey..

not even a bit =)

Oh dear, rest in peace my ebm..u know i love u..sob..sob

Gambar yang lupa untuk dirotatekan..sila rotate kepala anda secara manual yer..mintak mahap..jiwa kacau sket nengok gambar nih..sob..sob..sob

nota kaki : Turn to Allah,He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

Ya Allah

Guide my steps and don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one who can show me the way

Hadiff Masuk Hospital

Toing...yes. and it's scary..
Seeing our baby being hospitalised is no fun.at all.
Syukur, Rayyan Hadiff was so strong.
Even he was hitted with very high temperature he could fight it without antibiotic.
Only paracetamol and breastmilk.
Mama proud of you
of course with the monitoring from all the team in KPJ Tawakal Hospital
Thank you, Dr Kishore..nurses in KPJ Tawakal and all Hadiffs' friends in ward Violet
may Allah bless u =)
Gambar will update later,k?

notakaki : busy weh..busy