TO ALL WOMEN OUT THERE

I'm stressed, I'm blessed

I wanna share my saddest moment of 2012..(so far)
I was blessed with a pregnancy but i lost the baby the same day i knew the news..
actually i lost the baby first then i knew i'm pregnant..
while typing this entry i couldn't help myself from crying..
try to redha but I couldn't help myself from remembering those moments
I wont go into detail..I wish I could erase those scary moment from my mind
Macamana kain baju kurung ku lencun dek darah..
macamana ketulan gumpalan darah membuak dari celah kangkang..
how panic and scared I was and yet I must be strong..
I went to KPJ Tawakal to see this Doc..
He confirmed I was pregnant and the same time I lost the baby
Bergetar badan ku menahan sebak..aku try senyum menandakan aku redha..
I really don't know how am I going to tell Mr Kumbang..
Nak pengsan pon ada..tapi aku kena kuat sebab Doc tu suruh aku balik and discuss with husband..
suh datang esok utk D&C
WTH?Aku yang dah confirm berlumuran darah ni di suruh balik lagi
He kept on saying in government hospital is a lot cheaper..
Adoi, aku stress..
Di saat tu aku pikir, that's the different between private and government hospital
There's no humanity in private, money only..
Maybe dia ingat aku tak mampu bayar kot..
In government hospital they accept you whoever you are,
No offense to anyone out there..
It's just a personal thought from an emotional mother-who-just-lost-her-baby..
Maybe he just did whatever the procedure from the hospital..
He asked me to come again tomorrow at 8.30 am
but I swear I wont meet him again..anyway thank u doc..U did help me though :)
I forced myself to walk to the parking lot..
Kak Ainul, the one who had been with me from the moment I had my 'tumpah darah'
supported me a lot..
Thank u, sister..I owe u so much.. Only Allah can pay your kindness..
On our way to send me back home suddenly I had this stomach pain..
At last I tried to give a call to my dearest gynea, Dr Marsita Mansor.
Oh, actually I want to meet her at first place but I called the clinic and she had 29 patients were waiting for her..
that was why I decided to go to the hospital..
Ok, back to the story..I was so happy when I heard Dr Marsita's voice over the phone.
I thanked her for picking up the phone by knowing how busy she was at the moment.
I told her my condition and she shouted," Wani, you come here NOW!"
Here was the kemuncak in my story,
When I stepped into her clinic, the blood was getting heavier. rasa macam dalam movie pon ade
I couldn't walk since darah turun macam hujan.
I could see everybody's were panic as I am and sympathy too, I guess..
I met her and she confirmed my pregnancy was 6 weeks *cry again*
She was so surprised when I told her I went to the hospital earlier but was told to go back home in my condition.
I had to go thru a process called Dilation & Curettage (D&C)
I have 2 injections, one is a painkiller and another one is anesthetic  (actually I really don't know the term, U may refer to expert for this)
Less than 5 minutes I passed out.
When I woke up, I heard Hadiff was callling me happily..
"Mama, Hadiff nak teet! (mama, hadiff nak susu mama).
Eventhough I felt so weak (maybe because the amount of blood that I have lost) I tried to feed Hadiff.
I realized I lost my baby but I thank Allah, I had one..
Seriously, when I heard Hadiff called me, it was like a wake up call for me..
Don't be sad, mama.. U still have me..
Yes, Hadiff, you are my pride and joy!

notakaki : please make du'a to me..hope I'm getting better and stronger..

Feveretteeehhh!!

I write this entry because I really want to have a vacation but time and budget is not being that 'kind' to me..


This place is one of my favourite place..


It's in Malaysia..that's right people..Malaysia truly Asia..


So, for you who is still looking a right place to enjoy your honeymoon, spending your quality time with your beloved one and those who love scenery sightseeing and divers..this are the place :)

 

The view from the airplane

U need to take a boat to get there.. Don't panic especially to those yang mabuk laut sebab it only takes about 20 minutes to reach there..

Almost there.. Along the way, you'll be fascinated with the views.. 

Arriving at destination.. There's Eva, the manager..She's nice and friendly..If I'm not mistaken I think she's Italian,or Brazilian eh,maybe Spanish..wutever laa..yang kompem bukan Malaysian

See the view..It's breathtaking I tell u..

I wish I own this place..*sigh*

Maleh akak nak citer.. korang tengokla senirik..Ni baru guna kamera cap ayam je..kalau DSLR bagai akak tak tau la nak cakap

Eh..eh..tetibe puleekkk

Ehh ehhh..lagi la tetibee

I'm not very good in taking photo..but I can assure you the real view is very fascinating!

I really love this pics..I dunno why

And this too

And thiss...

See, how happy I am..:))

This is Mabul Island. It's very close to Sipadan and Kapalai Island, Sabah.

I've told you Malaysia is a very beautiful country..

Actually there were more pictures taken but too lazy to upload..

Someone asked me about the price but I hardly remember the details.


but I'm sure the rate is different now..


Whatever it is, this place is value for money..


I was here for my honeymoon trip back in May 2009.


And I'll be back again, Insya Allah..with my driving oppss, my diving license!


For more information, please visit this website http://www.mabulwaterbungalows.com.






Notakaki : agaknye ramai tak tourist masuk Malaysia sebab baca blog ni?kalo dapat menyumbang pastu mestilah aku ni dikira berjasa kepada negara. Agaknya (lagi) aku dapat tak pingat ke, darjah kebesaran ke ape ke.. *DUSH* berangan!! sape baca blog syok snirik kau nih..okayy,off to reality  :))

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Aku berfikir sejenak..

Erti kesyukuran..

Aku asyik bersuara,mencemuh,merungut,mengeluh..

Adakah aku lupa bahawa apa yang aku perolehi ini lebih ini lebih mencukupi..

Aku mungkin dalam kekurangan tetapi bukan kedaifan

Mungkin tak mewah tapi cukup

Aku diduga tetapi setimpal,

Sesungguhnya Yang Maha Esa tidak pernah menguji hambaNya lebih dari kemampuan hambaNya.

Pabila diduga aku mengeluh,

Lupakah aku Allah sedang berbicara dengan ku?

Kepada diri aku berpesan,

Jadilah hamba Allah yang redha,

tetapi bukan bererti tidak berjuang.

Allah tidak akan mengubah nasibku jika bukan aku yang mengubahnya.

Ya Tuhan,

Kurniakanlah kekuatan kepada hamba-hambaMu,

Satukanlah kami dalam Islam,

Rapatkan lah kami dalam satu saf yang kukuh.

Jadikanlah kami sebagai hambaMu yang bersyukur

Permudahkanlah segalanya agar kami dapat beribadah kepada Mu,

Dengan izinMu, 

Ya Rabb

Image googled, thank u and credit to owner :)
Hampir menangisi nasib anak ini :( Moga Allah melindungimu, nak

notakaki : Pesanan kepada diri..Moga dapat ambil iktibar

Pepper Lunch oh Pepper Lunch

Hello, semua!Saya skang nih tengah angau and mabuk kepayang dengan makanan ini

This is Beef Pepper Rice
Price : RM9.90

That's right,bebeh!It's Pepper Lunch,yummehs!

Yang bestnya, Pepper Lunch ni bukan sahaja sedap tapi cara makan juga sangat lah adventure.

It's easy. First we need to queue at the counter to order our food.Orders and payments are taken at the counter.Meaning, takdela orang nak layan sangat kalau kita call, Waiter!!

Secondly. Choose your meal.Choices of menu tu takdelah banyak sangat..just muat satu page sahaja but trust me, walaupun sikit tapi semua nampak menyelerakan.But my favourite mestila Beef Pepper Rice.My Kumbang loves their salmon.

Thirdly, they'll assigned you with a number and you may find your seat. Sementara itu, sudikan lah melihat di sekeliling yang rata-rata ada skrin besar menunjukkan cara-cara nak makan. Hehe, part ni yang best..

Bila makanan dah sampai tu, silalah praktikan..So,untuk Beef Pepper Rice ni, tuan-tuan dan puan-puan just gaul sahaja segala-galanya sampai masak dan rata.

Tadaaaa!!Dah siap, sila tunggu sejuk sikit baru makan.. Silap-silap boleh hilang deria rasa skejap kalau anda menunjukkan sikap gelojoh anda itu..hehe

Rasanya macamana? Macam nasi goreng,ey, tapi nasi goreng yang sedap la sebab die guna special butter mixed with fresh kernel corn and beef die..sangat lembut okayy..
Ditambah plak dengan pedas-pedas mild black pepper..so, rasenye,lemak,manis jagung and butter dan pedas pepper..purrfect!

Oh, yes! I'm addicted to it, seriously

Last week I ate this thing 3 days in row..

Hahaha..first I had it at ,Rasa Food court,KLCC.

then I had it at Pavillion,

and yesterday I had it at KlCC again..

U can have this at food court One Utama and Midvalley as well.

Do have a try..U wont regret..

Ok, thanks, bye

notakaki : nak layan gambar sambil telan airliur..napalah kat canteen bawah takde jual bendalah ni..

::Tak suke..tak suke::

Tak suke..tak sukee (ala-ala Fifi dalam Senduk Fifi Hotfm)

Klakar la mamat AG tu buat ala si Fifi tu..

He makes me smile by the way..thank u Mr AG from Hotfm..hehe

Okay, back to the real story..

I had been affected by food poisoning..

Gosh, it wasn't cool at all..

Pagi pegi office macam biasa..

Out of sudden, I felt like breathless..Dizzy..headache..etc.

First I thought I'm having migraine again..and when i realized I pi toilet quite often..

I googled..

Yup, without doubt..It was food poisoning..and it sucks!

I tried to settle all my works *Duh,keje mane penah abes kan..so,tipula kan*

I've asked permission from my Boss to excuse myself..cannot tahan laa..

Tapi biasala..urgent works still the priority..

and by 1 pm I balik rumah..

Guess what..the traffic was so bad at lunch hour

and i started wondering semua orang keluar lunch or sakit perut macam I jugak..pftt!

Seriously, peluh jantan, betina semua dah keluar..

The 'loya'ness is killing me..the stomach cramp is tearing me apart..

After quite some time I finally got home..

Doctor?Forget about it..All I want just to lay down on my beloved bed and my gorjes toilet..haha

Okay..sombong tak nak jumpa doktor ye..Nah kauuu..berulang la lapan kali ke toilet sampai lebam..

As a result..I cuba timbang..okay..I lost 1.5 kg yesterday..

Happy??yes..

Sanggup tak hadapi lagi?No!I rather keep my 1.5kg than having that tragedy again!

Morale of the story : Never eat lala and roti yang dikuatiri expiry datenya. Ini kerana I sorang je yang kena keracunan ini. So, I suspect lala because I never had lala before and kebetolan I masak lala untuk en Kumbang. Disebabkan sedap (terpaksa puji diri sendiri) maka I makan jugak. Kakak ofis i cakap kalau orang tak tahan memang sakit perut makan lala ni..Dang!!

And #2 is roti. I'm the only person in my house yang makan roti cicah kari (konon taknak makan nasi sebab diet). Memang doa ku dimakbulkan sebab penurunan yang drastik yer, tuan-tuan dan puan-puan..

Okay, please take care of yourself,people.. Apapun I syukur I sorang je yang kene..bukan En Kumbang or My Lil Hadiff (cewah, kira sanggup berkorban la ni)..

Here are some infos, I can share with you regarding  food poisoning ni.

Kalau nak tau camnilah muke ku semalam...

Hijau muke mak, nork!

::Fabulous Friday::

Alhamdulillah..
Today is the first time we are celebrating Ramadhan on Friday..
The benefits and virtues of Friday itself are so beautiful..and Friday on Ramadhan?
Go figure yourself..
No..I'm going to figure it myself, and I wanna share it here..with you and hope my kids(kids?Amin!) will read this as a guidance to themselves..

"Friday is the best Day of the week. It is the Mothers of all days and the most virtuous in the sight of Allah.In the sight of Allah it has more greatness than Eid-ul-Fitr and Eid –ul-Adha (Reported in Ibn Majah)

Masya Allah, aku menantikan Hari Raya sebagai hari yang untuk aku bergembira padahal aku diberi peluang menempuh hari yang terbaik di pandangan Allah pada setiap minggu (^_^!) Bertuahnya kami, Ya Allah!

 Friday is Sayyid-The Master of the week, the best of days, like Ramadhan is Sayyid of the Month and Surah Baraqah is the Sayyid of the Quran.

So, geddit people? We have double Rahmah today as it today is Friday the best day of week and Ramadhan the best month of year!
Ada yang mengatakan dari sesetengah aspek, malam Jumaat adalah malam yang lebih tinggi dari Lailatul Qadar..Allahuakbar!

The beauty of Friday itself is countless..but lemme share with u some of it :

There is a blessed hour on Friday during which a person is granted anything lawful and good by Allah that he prays for.

Therefore friends..always and always trust in Allah..banyakkan berdu'a di hari Jumaat..dan janganlah kite sembarangan bercakap kerana kemungkinan Allah akan mengangkat kata-kate itu sebagai du'a kita. Ada yang mengatakan Du'a yang dimakbul Allah ialah pada waktu Asar ke Maghrib (^_^)

The birds and insects meet with one another on Friday and say "peace be upon you , may it be a good day.

The Muslim who passes away on the night or during the day of Friday, Allah Ta'ala saves him from the punishment of the grave." (Tirmidhi)

Surah al Mulk is the protector from the torment of the grave, so if you dont die on friday and wont know when we are going to die, its best to read every and memorise this surah also. There is a Surah which will plead for its reciter till it causes him to enter paradise (Tabarakallahi Biyadihil Mulk).

Silalah yer...persiapkan diri kita untuk menempuh alam di sana..di sana..

If anyone performs Wudu' properly, then comes to the Friday prayer, listens to the Khutbah (religious talk) attentively and keeps silent, his (minor) sins between that Friday and the following Friday will be forgiven, with the addition of three more days; but he who touches pebbles has caused an interruption.

Either some people (i.e., hypocrites) stop neglecting the Friday prayers, or Allah will seal their hearts and they will be among the heedless.

Umat Islam digalakkan mandi sunat Jumaat, berpakaian bersih dan cantik dan memakai haruman di hari Jumaat. tapi ingat ye,kenkawan..the intention is only for Allah..bukan untuk menunjuk-nunjuk..lain pulak hukumnya tu..

Okay, yang ni je i dapat bagitau..kekangan masa and work load..

Every afternoon, the heat of jahannam is increased. However, through the blessings of jumu'ah, this will not be done on Fridays. (Ihyaa ul-Uloom)

Nanti kalau ade yang lain i sharing lagi yer..

By the way, korang boleh surf more at http://www.deenislam.co.uk/friday.htm for more infos..Kat siini banya yang diceritakan tentang kelebihan Jumaat ni.Semoga kite akan menantikan hari Jumaat kerana keindahannya bukan sebab pre-weekend, lunch hour lama bla bla.. (refer pada sendiri jugak (^_^!))
Kalau ada yang perlu diperbetulkan silalah tegur saya yang masih cetek ilmu agama.
If is there anyone who want to share anything, you are most welcome!

 Selamat Hari Jumaat dan selamat beramal,people!